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01 August 2010 @ 10:27 pm
I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did.  
And even though we've been over for approx one week, I'm falling even more in love with you. I know that this is not healthy, I know that this would only hurt me even more if you reject me, but I can't help myself. 

Love is not an easy feeling to put into words. Sometimes these things just happen, and I really cannot do anything to help it. I see you in school, and my heart beats so damn wildly for you. My heart tightens so much, too much, and at the end of the day, there's only a hole in my heart that only you can fill.

I wish I could convince you we could make us work. But almost everything I want to say to you is in the letter I gave, and right now, it's up to you. I kept to my promise - I fought for you when things got so difficult, and now there's nothing left for me to do but hope for the best. Ultimately, it's up to you because you know that I would want you back in a heartbeat. I know that you need  time and space, so take all you need my dear, because I would always be here waiting for you.

My friends are divided into two. One group tells me to be patient, give you time, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. The other group tells me you don't deserve me; that there are better guys out there for me. You have no idea how much I want to whack this certain group of people. And I swear, the next person who comes up to tell me about these non-existent "better guys", I will slap them. Because I do believe that you will always be the best, that nothing or no one can ever top you.

We were so good together. You truly made me a better person. And I know you're going through tough times right now, and there's nothing I'd rather do but to be there in your arms; to be there for you whenever you need me.

So right now, I would go with the flow. I will continue hoping for the best, and as much as it hurts me, I will wait for you.

I love you so much more than you can imagine.